i hate it.......

I am sick of this emotional entangle and dependence. My never ending tryst to break on to the other side .this never ending war is making me lame. It’s almost like having no limbs. Were is the myself I loved so much disappeared I liked it you know the meaner me , the survivor me , the solitary birding trips…made me stronger….but I don’t know why I feel week in the knees again..

I had to muck it up for myself. Idiot…

winter

hmm....can u feel the nip in the air...the third dimension which appears on the street lights ...
winter is round the corner and its already getting lonely and cold...

their were times i waited for winters and now it seems i detest them for the coldness and the sadness it beholds...i need my sunshine....

well would it be the second depressing winter in a row ..last year October was when i started writing this blog and life hasn't changed much...

i guess its time...i guess the buck stops here....