I Seek

I seek darkness , after light blinded me

I seek pain , after joy made me crawl

I seek ugliness , after beauty vanished from within

I seek starvation , after my grub poisoned me

I seek storm , after the lull made me fall

I seek war , after peace killed the old me

I seek strangulation , after the air that suffocated me

I seek poverty , after the rich me let go all i had

I seek deception , after trust stabbed me in my back

I seek enemy , after my friends lusted my girl

I seek hatred , after my love turned ugly

I seek no future , after my past refused to stay put

I seek no new me , after the old me died yesterday

I seek death ,after my life walked off